Nerves

I am so nervous for my ct and MRI today. I can't explain it, but every scan is so scary, because of that one you did have that was bad...very bad. I hope everything looks good and cancer free, i still have nightmares that more tumors have multiplied or i just have one very big tumor again, and every scan makes me so nervous. I think it will be that way for the rest of my life. It's like going to get a facial one a month but mine will be scans and MRI's and blood work and check ups. I feel so lucky to have an amazing medical team and hopefully with time my mind and nerves can be at ease. I will let you know tomorrow! All my love,

Mary