good day

Today Tim's sister Deborah took me to my appointment and i am sure she is learning more about me and cancer and chemo and radiation than she ever thought she would! Actually have good news my ANC rose to 4000 and its great to know that i have some immune system and allowed again to go some places. They did a x-ray since i am still have so much trouble holding down my feeds they wondered if the tube had moved position but NO everything is fine with the placement and that kinda makes me more frustrated as to why i am having so much trouble. Weight is a very big issue and i am not gaining weight and and 6 pounds below their line. If i continue to not be able to hold down the formula they will do something called TPN it is really a last resort, but they have to give me nutrients through my port in my chest, i would have to be in the hospital and its a high risk for infection as its not natural path for food and nutrients. I REALLY don't want that but its not like can really help throwing up...otherwise i would never do it its not like i enjoy it! I am just really trying to keep the formula down and eat all the time, its just a little frustrating and a huge stress. My mom made dinner tonight and Tim and Deborah came over..Other than that i feel good and am excited to try and get a few things done this week! All my love