admitted

The pain in my throat has gotten so bad that i could not swallow even water. We went to the ER last night because i was extremly dehydrated and had a fever and a lot of pain. I was admitted and put on a morphine drip. Unfortunatly the morphine does not seem to ease the pain, and swallowing is still impossible. My mom will pick me up from children's tomorrow and take me to UW for radation something i am really not looking forward to! All my love

Pain

Wow in the past two days the radiation has really caught up with me. I cannot eat anything swallowing is impossible, it took me 5 hours to drink one bottle of water. I can not believe how painful my throat is. It has surpassed the pain of the tumor! I have pain meds but i am trying to avoid them as much as possible. My nurse will know when i need to be admitted by how much pain meds i am taking. I have never been a fan of them mostly because they seem to make me sick. Once i am taking oxycodone every 6 hours she will give me Oxycontin when i am taking that often i will be admitted and put on a morphine drip. I really thought radiation was going well, but i new this was going to happen just didn't think i would be in this much pain this soon! All my love

Mary

Happy Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! Wow what an amazing thanksgiving since we couldn't go to Oak Harbor Tim made us Thanksgiving dinner, he made a turkey, stuffing, mashed potatoes, veggies and Deborah made a apple pie! Sad that i couldn't eat the turkey or stuffing in the last couple days my throat has gotten really really sore and swallowing is almost impossible. I am so thankful that next Thanksgiving i will be able to eat everything!! Just having the smell of it all was amazing. Tim bought the super mario bros for Wii and we have had so much fun playing it all day and watching me die every5 seconds. Dinner was amazing and i can't believe that Tim did it all!

I just wanted to thank everyone for all of the amazing support and love, i feel so truly lucky to have so many amazing family and friends to surround me this thanksgiving. Words just aren't enough but THANK YOU to all of you! I love you.
all my love

Mary
P.S. to family and friends the wedding date is July 24th 2010!

update

Today Tim's sister came to take me to radiation, afterwards i felt good so we went to the cheesecake factory and went shopping! Tim is spending the night in Kent tonight and will be taking me to Children's tomorrow for blood work, a check up, chemo and then to UW for radiation and my Dr. Day! Tomorrow is my last day for radiation this week because of thanksgiving! So far so good, my throat hurts really bad but i haven't had any awful side effects yet from radiation. The chemo part is rather easy and because they are only using one chemo drug my hair is starting to grow back. Not that i am not complaining but i am not looking forward to my eyebrows and eyelashes growing back just so they can fall out again after radiation..so i hope it stays. Tim and i are hoping to make to Oak Harbor at least one day this weekend because it would be great to see everyone! All my love

Mary

Just another Monday

My Aunt Maureen left today, and it was so sad to see her go! We had a good week and she was an amazing help!! I only have radiation Mon-Wed this week because of Thanksgiving! I am feeling good and am hoping that this week goes well! I miss my Dad he has pneumonia and hasn't been feeling well for a couple of weeks! I am not sure if i am going to Oak Harbor for Thanksgiving i really want to go but i just don't want to risk getting sick. The holidays just aren't the same without your family!! Either way i will have a great turkey day and have so much to be thankful for! All my love

Mary

Home

After a long week its so good to be home with Tim! I miss him so much, and nothing is as good as your own home! I am feeling ok, my aunt Maureen went with me today before my appointment and i finally bought a wig, its just a quick fix i guess you could say. The one i want takes a month to come in so this one will work and it is fun to have hair again..but is never as good as real hair!

Going good!

So far so good! The first week of radiation is supposed to be easy! My Aunt Maureen is amazing, she has cleaned the kent house spotless, every counter top and place with clutter is now cleaned. Its amazing! Tim came over last night, i miss him so much! He gave me a massage for an hour and got my meds ready, i feel asleep at 8 and woke up at 8:30 this morning the best sleep in a long long time! One side effect from radiation is extreme tiredness, not sure if that is why i was tired but for once i enjoyed the rest! Good news during radiation i will only be getting the vincristine for chemo, so that means no nausea just the neuropathy and other weird side effects but i will take it! We learned in my appointment at UW that the two lymph nodes that where large when i began treatment have shrunk dramatically...that is not good news it means that they where responding to chemo and are likely cancerous. They have altered radiation to get the lymph nodes as well just to make sure they get everything. I guess radiation only works well once, they can't really do it again! Learn something new every day! After tomorrow only 4 more weeks of radiation! All my love

Mary